"I cannot answer you,"he replied in a subdued voice."I almost forget what they mean by DEAD in the old world.If I said a person was dead,my wife would understand one thing,and you would imagine another.--This is but one of my treasure vaults,"he went on,"and all my guests are not laid in vaults:out there on the moor they lie thick as the leaves of a forest after the first blast of your winter--thick,let me say rather,as if the great white rose of heaven had shed its petals over it.All night the moon reads their faces,and smiles.""But why leave them in the corrupting moonlight?"I asked.
"Our moon,"he answered,"is not like yours--the old cinder of a burnt-out world;her beams embalm the dead,not corrupt them.You observe that here the sexton lays his dead on the earth;be buries very few under it!In your world he lays huge stones on them,as if to keep them down;I watch for the hour to ring the resurrection-bell,and wake those that are still asleep.Your sexton looks at the clock to know when to ring the dead-alive to church;I hearken for the cock on the spire to crow;`AWAKE,THOUTHAT SLEEPEST,AND ARISE FROM THE DEAD!'"
I began to conclude that the self-styled sexton was in truth an insane parson:the whole thing was too mad!But how was I to get away from it?I was helpless!In this world of the dead,the raven and his wife were the only living I had yet seen:whither should I turn for help?I was lost in a space larger than imagination;for if here two things,or any parts of them,could occupy the same space,why not twenty or ten thousand?--But I dared not think further in that direction.
"You seem in your dead to see differences beyond my perception!"Iventured to remark.
"None of those you see,"he answered,"are in truth quite dead yet,and some have but just begun to come alive and die.Others had begun to die,that is to come alive,long before they came to us;and when such are indeed dead,that instant they will wake and leave us.Almost every night some rise and go.But I will not say more,for I find my words only mislead you!--This is the couch that has been waiting for you,"he ended,pointing to one of the three.
"Why just this?"I said,beginning to tremble,and anxious by parley to delay.
"For reasons which one day you will be glad to know,"he answered.
"Why not know them now?"
"That also you will know when you wake."
"But these are all dead,and I am alive!"I objected,shuddering.
"Not much,"rejoined the sexton with a smile,"--not nearly enough!
Blessed be the true life that the pauses between its throbs are not death!""The place is too cold to let one sleep!"I said.
"Do these find it so?"he returned."They sleep well--or will soon.
Of cold they feel not a breath:it heals their wounds.--Do not be a coward,Mr.Vane.Turn your back on fear,and your face to whatever may come.Give yourself up to the night,and you will rest indeed.
Harm will not come to you,but a good you cannot foreknow."The sexton and I stood by the side of the couch,his wife,with the candle in her hand,at the foot of it.Her eyes were full of light,but her face was again of a still whiteness;it was no longer radiant.
"Would they have me make of a charnel-house my bed-chamber?"Icried aloud."I will not.I will lie abroad on the heath;it cannot be colder there!""I have just told you that the dead are there also,`Thick as autumnal leaves that strow the brooks In Vallombrosa,'"said the librarian.
"I will NOT,"I cried again;and in the compassing dark,the two gleamed out like spectres that waited on the dead;neither answered me;each stood still and sad,and looked at the other.
"Be of good comfort;we watch the flock of the great shepherd,"said the sexton to his wife.
Then he turned to me.
"Didst thou not find the air of the place pure and sweet when thou enteredst it?"he asked.
"Yes;but oh,so cold!"I answered.
"Then know,"he returned,and his voice was stern,"that thou who callest thyself alive,hast brought into this chamber the odours of death,and its air will not be wholesome for the sleepers until thou art gone from it!"They went farther into the great chamber,and I was left alone in the moonlight with the dead.
I turned to escape.
What a long way I found it back through the dead!At first I was too angry to be afraid,but as I grew calm,the still shapes grew terrible.At last,with loud offence to the gracious silence,Iran,I fled wildly,and,bursting out,flung-to the door behind me.
It closed with an awful silence.
I stood in pitch-darkness.Feeling about me,I found a door,opened it,and was aware of the dim light of a lamp.I stood in my library,with the handle of the masked door in my hand.
Had I come to myself out of a vision?--or lost myself by going back to one?Which was the real--what I now saw,or what I had just ceased to see?Could both be real,interpenetrating yet unmingling?
I threw myself on a couch,and fell asleep.
In the library was one small window to the east,through which,at this time of the year,the first rays of the sun shone upon a mirror whence they were reflected on the masked door:when I woke,there they shone,and thither they drew my eyes.With the feeling that behind it must lie the boundless chamber I had left by that door,I sprang to my feet,and opened it.The light,like an eager hound,shot before me into the closet,and pounced upon the gilded edges of a large book.
"What idiot,"I cried,"has put that book in the shelf the wrong way?"But the gilded edges,reflecting the light a second time,flung it on a nest of drawers in a dark corner,and I saw that one of them was half open.
"More meddling!"I cried,and went to close the drawer.
It contained old papers,and seemed more than full,for it would not close.Taking the topmost one out,I perceived that it was in my father's writing and of some length.The words on which first my eyes fell,at once made me eager to learn what it contained.Icarried it to the library,sat down in one of the western windows,and read what follows.
